Monday, January 17, 2011

2011: What Do I Want?

I follow many, many blogs. I like to read them! I like good writing. I like people. I like to know how my friends are doing. It helps me to feel like my life is just not so different from everyone else's. I like what I learn from others. I see that the world has amazing people in it when I read other blogs. I realize too that I am just a small part of that "world." I like that my "world" is big. It really is. That makes me happy.

This morning after getting the kids off to school and then "faithfully" checking to make sure my homework was finished for my classes, I started checking my favorite blogs. I was excited so see what the week-end had brought. I know my own week-end was filled with memories, laughter, reflection, good conversation, great food and more! I hoped to find that as well for my friends.

One blog that I love to read belongs to a "friend" that is going through some major changes in her life. She was able to go to the "Biggest Loser" Ranch in Southern Utah and have some "life-changing" experiences. I love her journey. I want to make that journey soon as well.

This morning I thought I would share what I found on my friend's blog. I am excited to make a "want list." Do you have one? Will you have one for 2011? I am going to get on this right away. I will have to post it tomorrow. I also want to update everyone on my "100 things in 1001 days"list as well. I think you will be surprised. I know I was.
________________________________From L.C.
Sunday, January 16, 2011
My Want List
My young friend and I chatted for a bit today.She's feeling the pull of the life she was living just two weeks ago. And we talked about the choice she has right now. I didn't know quite what to say and then I heard myself say this:"The easy thing to do would be to go back to what you were doing, right? I mean, that's easy. That's why so many do it. You're choosing to do the hard thing.

So OF COURSE it's difficult.But, it won't always be hard.You can either do the easy thing now and have a harder life later or you can do the hard thing now and have an easier life later.What do you want?"I knew I was talking to her.But, honestly, I was talking to myself too.Turns out this "change your life" thing is proving to be harder than either one of us wanted it to be. Don't misunderstand...She's still being clean.I'm still working out.But, it's hard.

This is a long unfamiliar road.And there are moments when it just seems too big.I realized today that during those moments, when all is said and done, it comes down to what you really really want.I think my friend is too young right now to know for sure what she really wants.(and so I'm just praying with all my heart she can do this.)But, I'm not too young.And I know what I want.

There are just a few things, really.In fact, I've made a list of 9 (sure, I could have made a list of "10" but it turns out I only want "9"...)Suffice it to say that these are the desires of my heart.These are the things I finally know I can do.These are the "[sighings] which cannot be uttered" (Rom. 8:26).

It's my want list.And I finally wrote it down.I'm going to read it every night this week...I'm going to read it when my alarm goes off at 5:15 every morning...And, well, I'm going to get up.And I'm going to choose to do the hard thing now.Because that's what girls like me do.Because. I. Can.Because He, "that is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think [or want], according to the power that worketh in us" (Eph 3:20), will help me.Anyone else have a "want list"?

Have you written it down?


Claire said...

Did I ever say how glad I am that you are back blogging? well I am!!!

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elaine said...

I want to have a want list. I want to know it's okay to be happy, that living the Gospel doesn't mean living in bondage or suffering. I want to remember I am first and foremost a daughter of God. Thank you for the encouragement to remember this!